Today I got a chance to observe the balcony birds from my Charlotte place. I observed VERY CLOSELY. Of course one reason was because I have to keep the squirrels from sampling the tray feeder “buffet” and to keep to their cracked corn and peanuts on the bottom of the feeding station.
The rain and overcast conditions did not stop me. And I am glad I persevered. Check out these pics.
Finishing my trade book took me back to the final months of my AngelChild’s time on Earth. Going through all those interviews with Great Dismal Swamp descendants, re-interpreting meaning, reliving the pandemic before the vaccine and confronting my evolving acceptance of life and loss was in itself a trial. Despite the struggle, I finished and I am proud of this achievement.
On a Heaven child’s birthday, we know that the object is to celebrate the beautiful memory and miracle of their birth. I love my son as much as the day I birthed him, as much as they day of funeral, and I love him still as a Spirit child in Heaven.✨ Celebrating You Today ✨
Today marks the birthday of my precious son, and while you may not be here with us, your spirit shines brightly in all the beauty around us.
You had an incredible love for art and nature, finding joy in every brushstroke and every blooming flower. I can almost hear your laughter echoing through the trees and see your vibrant imagination dancing in the colors of the sunset. 🎨🌻
On this special day, I honor the creativity and wonder you brought into this world. Your passion for life continues to inspire me and everyone who knew you. Thank you for the lessons you taught us and for the love that fills our hearts. You’re forever a part of our lives, my little artist in Heaven.
Today, I celebrate the love we shared and the beauty you still bring to this world. Happy birthday, my sweet boy! 💙✨ #ForeverInMyHeart #HeavenlyBirthday #CelebratingYou
I remember the very first time I heard the song “Birdland”. I was in sixth grade at I. Ellis Johnson Magnet School in Laurinburg, N.C. I was one of three Afro-descended students in A.G. We were annexed on the school’s west wing so that the bussed in affluent children would not interface with the non-A.G. horde but in three instances: Physical education, cafeteria, and special events.
Of course, the other two black academically gifted students and I knew the non-A.G. horde—they lived in our neighborhoods. Some were our distant relatives, but not mine.
My people were out of Gullah Country, SC. In N.C., my mother’s family, let’s just say, aged out of having kids or grandkids in middle school during my coming of age.
So I walked between two worlds—the affluent A.G. Euro-descended kids from the “nice” side of town and the people we saw every day simply by being outside. Preachers, teachers, number runners, gamblers, winos, uncles, aunts, and saints.
But that first day I heard “Birdland?”? It was a special event at our school. Mars Hill College jazz band had come to perform in the gymnasium. I was excited since I played a mean trumpet (ahem, 1st chair in 7th grade despite my enormous God-given lips). I wanted to hear the music that my baby Boomer-aged parents and older GenX siblings often played in the car on long journeys from Durham to UNC-Chapel Hill, where two of my siblings are alumni.
So there I sat, looking, listening and watching the band prepare the next composition.
I recall looking at my peers. Those big 8th graders were nearby!
One in particular, Ebonie Williams, a tall, shapely girl known to beat people up if they talked about her, looked uncommonly glum.
The word on the street was that she’d just been given ISS (in-school suspension) for pushing someone at recess. Clearly, she had had to teach that person a lesson! Sadly, though, she used violence to do so. Needless to say, she was not in a good mood, and her facial expression, despite the lively music, revealed a determined sulk and did not change.
All of a sudden, I noticed something. One of the trombone players got out of his seat and said, “Play Birdland!” Then, to everyone’s surprise, he got up from his chair, walked over, and extended his hand to Ebonie!!
Ebonie looked at him, smiled, and got up. Some preppy Mars Hill white guy in a necktie surely was no match for her moves! They literally did a ballroom dance to the music playing! They danced to Birdland.
The adolescent crowd ROARED!
Antoine, who always got in trouble, started doing backflips.
I was jamming, too. It was so fun.
THAT is my memory of Birdland.
But…
The song Birdland is not about birds, though. It is a musical homage to Charlie “Bird” Parker and the jazz club in NYC that bears his name. But as a kid, I was at the beginning of my knowledge of jazz standards. I knew Miles Davis, Ramsey Lewis, Herb Alpert, and David Sanborn, but I had much to learn.
So I drove the snowy roads of Dryden, Freeville, Lansing, and Brooktondale to find a few feathered friends. See them here:
Birdland was written by Jay Zawinul and performed by The Weather Report in 1977, two years before I was born.
So many people have covered the song, that for many years I had no idea who made it. Hell I thought the Gershwins wrote it LOL.
The griever’s year aligns with sacramental time, ritualized through memory, legacy, struggle, pain, mourning, and an intense abiding love that penetrates the realms.
The day that my son passed away, I began my life in the After and each August 3rd since that painful day in 2020, I begin a new year.
This remembrance is painful and excruciating. You still feel the moment of separation down to the hours. The body responds. At that moment, I reached out for God.
I ask God to hold me. I beg God to remind that this a painful memory of the the not very distant past, yet it hurts like it is happening again.
I made it through this day. I spent it in Litchfield Beach, SC, Georgetown, SC, Laurinburg, NC, Charlotte NC all in a span of 36 hours. Constant movement, tears fall, sounds of music, doom metal, jazz metal, ambient metal capture the mood as beautiful images of birds, of water, of sky, of trees, flowers fill my vision field.
The Bobolink. Which I pronounce- BOE-BOE- Link. A bird that managed to elude my presence when I lived in Nebraska where they are commonly seen out on the prairies. I would see the bird profiled on Spring Creek Prairie Audubon waysides. So I knew what it looked like. But my first time seeing it in real life would not come until…3.5 years later in Tompkins County, New York.
Yes I saw it for the first time TODAY.
How did I know it was there, well ebird. Someone saw it on the 28th of June!
So I set out to find Summerland Farm Reserve. I managed to go to the wrong driveway at first, but the landowner kindly directed me to the public parking.
Sign for Summerland Farm Preserve!
When I arrived at the right spot, the entrance led to a densely wooded forest with damp surface as it rained last night. Immediately I began scanning for fungi and old tree stumps.
Soon I exited the forested area onto a gradual rise that revealed a large prairie on a hill. Many views of the region from that perspective too.
One of the great beauties of living in the Fingerlakes is the ability view the panorama of loveliness.
I’ll always love Ithaca. Just look at the views!Sedge in focus, background view de-emphasized
I noticed a blackish figure on a sign. I took my camera and zoomed in and THERE IT WAS!
The Bobolink. A he!
Folks who follow me on Twitter know that my friend Frederic Beaudry and I are working on a book about Bobolinks.
I had the pleasure of being invited to Black Birders Week programming this past May! Nicole Jackson, ecological and wildlife education extraordinaire, contacted me, and I was glad to accept!
The link for the recording:
Event Poster
Make sure to check out the programming from other illustrious speakers too!
Big shout to NYC Birders who are also twitter mutuals: Above 96th and Flaco/Geraldine and David Lei!
Flaco Eurasian Eagle Owl photographed by the inimitable David Lei, one of the many admirers and photographers of Flaco.
If you are still on twitter and want to continue viewing photos of Flaco, search ‘Flaco” or RIPFlaco and you will see all the loving birders and photographers who cherished him.
I haven’t updated in a while here and I am sorry. So much has been happening and I have found myself really getting into the thick of things with my new role at Cornell. Our team at Freedom on the Move received several grants that required some all hands on deck type sprints, so this resulted in me being slow to update.
In December I did a bit traveling for work. For one, I drove down to Suffolk, VA on December 6 to help celebrate the 50th anniversary of the Great Dismal Swamp National Wildlife Refuge. While there I made sure to stop at Chincoteague and bird my way back! I took the Chesapeake Bay way back up to Ithaca and some fresh looks at cool birds. Some lifers!
I even stopped in Delaware at Prime Hook. Amazing place. You must visit there!
A few days after my birthday (December 15) I had a work trip in Worcester, MA. While there I took a trip up to Provincetown, MA and got some bountiful photos of the Common Eider (male) and Red Breasted Merganser at Herring Cove Beach. MY GOD IT WAS COLD. The wind was 40mph and the temps after wind chill were an icy 19F. It was not an easy time to be in the wind! But I persevered for the birds.
Christmas Day in Ithaca was nice. The sun came out after being absent for some time. I hurriedly jumped in my car and got some photos!
As with all things my constant companion, grief, was there along the way and sweet and sometimes bittersweet memories crept into view of my son, my daughter and I at Christmas in Laurinburg, N.C. at my parents house, a place they both love/d. There were times of intense prostration crying out to God for peace and for grace.
Moments where nothing but the mercy of God above afforded the eventual pause for recognition of grace.
Enjoy the photos from December 2023.
Stay birdy.
Virginia
Delaware
Massachussetts
Ithaca
Christmas Day- Ithaca
My Birthday
Big shout out to: Matt Cohen, PhD, Anna Sims Bartel, PhD, Paul and Eileen G., Ed Baptist, Phd for birthday books/baskets/drinks/baskets/books.
Christmas Day
In close communion with God and my son’s memoryDecember 29, 2023, got my belated gift from mentor and friend. Ed Baptist, PhD